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Well I had an appointment with the counseller on Monday and she said that she can seem I'm down at the moment. I've managed to drag myself out of a little bit of the pit but I still need to improve. I want my low fat diet to work, but the fact is I am not motivated to exercise at the moment and that is most important of all. I want to lose about 10 pounds before christmas and I want to be able to fit into the pretty top that I bought a while ago so I can wear it for christmas.

My tooth is still being a little shit (probably not helping the mood situation) my wisdom tooth appears to be growing into my cheek and boy does it feel like it! I have been taking ibuprofen solidly for two days now and it hurts like a mutha. Why aren't dentists free!!??

I am looking forward to christmas and something funny has happened to me. I have christmas spirit! Like the sort Amber and mum used to have lol. I really want to make it fun and I'm excited. I'm looking forward to seeing the family again although I will miss James a lot and Sheffield. It's kinda bitter sweet. But it's still all good.

Do you know what I think I need? A job. I think I'd be much happier if I had a job and I was losing weight. Someone help me on the weight loss front PLEASE!

Now I'm going to watch Colin Fry (he's a medium on telly and he connects with people that have passed over from people in the audience and he gets everything right and details only THEY would know, it makes me sure that Mum is watching me!) Bye bye for now!

It doesn't seem to get any better!

Had a crap night because basically my fooking wisdom tooth which started coming through nearly 2 bloody years ago is playing blue murder again and my cheek and gums are the victims. I'm sure it's trying to grow through my damn cheek. It hurts, it hurts a lot. I am talking ibuprofen to make the swelling of my inner cheek go down otherwise I can't eat. It's ok at the moment, I had toast. Meh Meh Meh Meh Meh. I hope when I sign on I will be able to go to the dentist for free.

Um other stuff that has happend is not much really. I'm going to see mrs counsellor lady today... Er thats about it. I'm also tring to think of what to get Amber for the other of her christmas presents. She has to have a random chocolate present in there too (not counting as one of the five) mmm chocolate, I could go for chocolate right now.

God, it's ages til Jeremy Kyle. THE WHOLE WORLD IS AGAINST ME!

Really disturbing dream alert

Is it because I watched the third Nightmare on Elm Street? Or is it because I'm feeling a bit crap and my mind is being to overactive? I don't know but this was scary.

I dreamt that Phil (James' brother, age 20) got it on with my sister. Eep.

In other news I am still feeling a but MEH. But I hope it will change soon. Anyone got any ideas on how to cheer myself up?